This Road (Endless Torture)

Past is past,
Future is future,
Running ahead of myself,
Never looking back,
Always remembering,
Childhood pain,
Two different paths,
A fork in the road,
I chose the wrong path,
Too late to go back,
I made my decision,
Now I am stuck,
Forever tortured,
My torturous pain,
I could have let it go,
I should have...
But I chose the wrong path,
I took the wrong road,
I keep messing up,
My failures won't stop,
I planned it ahead,
I watched it blow up,
Continue down the road,
Where does it lead?
Where does it go?
Is it possible to know?
When you choose to hold on,
Hold onto the pain,
Is there even a way to escape?
Death couldn't save me,
Not at this point,
The pain,
It's too much,
I'm sorry,
I continue,
You understand?
I understand,
This road never ends...